Lost my sister
My sister died when she was a baby and I was a child. The only memory I have of her is of her being ill. I don't even know when her exact birthday is because it's too painful to ask my parents.
I think about her very often though. She's be probably 18/19 know, and I often think about how much I'd love a sister. I have other siblings that I love very much, but I can't get over the hole that losing my sister has left.
I'm always incredibly envious of sisters who are close, or simply friends that act like they are sisters, because I'm often thinking about the friendship my sister and me could have had.
It has got better with time, but I will never get over this, and I will never cease to admire my parents for getting through the trauma. Nothing in my life will be worse than what has already happened.
I miss her all the time, I just wish I could have one day that we could spend together as adults, to have fun, and to be the best friends that I'm sure we would be.