lost my sweet loving daughter at 24

by cathy
(sicily island louisana)

On june 26,2012 my daughter,Randi C.Rowell ask me o drop her at the bus station to head to ohio ,from Louisiana,to go visit a friend. she had never been apart from me. she was my only child and my best friend. so full of life. we wear the same clothes ,had the same friends,worked at the same place. she was such a blessing. she was not perfect and had used meth and caught a charge and got probation several years before this and .every month she past her urine test and was doing well. she was my everything. and she trusted everyone and believed everyone. her friend told her that heroin would make her feel better than any drug she had ever done. so he made it up and shot her up with the same amount as himself and she closed her eyes and died.he left her on the bathroom floor for at least four hours while he cleaned up his room and made up a story. then went down the hall to another room and got another girl to come to their room. the girl made him call for help. he told lie after lie. they found a weed pipe and seven empty weed bags and a clean needle with her body. he said he went to bed at 10pm and she went to bathe and had choked on hard candy and had gotten sick and was running another bathe. and that he didn't wake up til 4am and found her dead . said he gave her cpr . but it was all a lie. he called me and when i answered no one said anything and i said Randi and he then said she died ms Cathy. later he told me that they had done roxys at six pm and that was a lie. it was black tar heroin. and the medical ex.said when it was given to her that she died within minutes. that she never knew anything. didn't suffer at all. the boy even told the law that she had miscarried the day before and may of taken her own life. but that also wasn't true. she had not been pregnant and would of never taken her own life. she had a baby in 2005 and he lived less than three months. died from SIDS.and she was sad and hurt over this but never wanted to end her life. she and i were so close and shared most everything. and she had called me and left me a message the day before and was so happy sounding.happier than i had ever heard her sound. I miss her so much. my life will never be the same. she took my happiness with her when she left.

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Jun 30, 2014
So sorry for your loss
by: Gale

Hi Cathy,
I too lost my only child on June 9, 2014. It was from an apparent heroin overdose. Michael was 31 years old and the light of my life. I absolutely adored that child. He was, I thought, clean from the drugs. Eight months ago he met a girl who had a son 7 years old named Kai. Jasmine and Michael hit it off immediately. They laughed together, respected and were so kind to one another. Jas was a wonderful mom - she too had her days of drug use but it was understood that was behind her.
Michael had a bachelor degree in design and motion graphics, he did work for HBO, Showtime, A&E, 20/20.....just so talented. He had just gotten off probation after 1 year. Prior to that he had stayed in a sober house for a year, and when he completed that, probation started. Michael moved home for about 2 months and then got his own place. Everything was falling into place and then the unthinkable....
He had spent the day with Jas and Kai. They went to the beach and then back to his apartment for another swim. From there they went over to Jas's house for dinner, put Kai to bed and watched a movie. Her mom went into the living room to check in and the TV was on but they were gone.
The next day Kai, who had lost a tooth, came downstairs and said the tooth fairy hadn't come to his room. He then went upstairs to wake his mom, came down and said the air conditioner froze her. Both Michael and Jasmine went to sleep and never woke up.
How my heart breaks - Cathy how do you manage on a daily basis? I find myself falling apart unexpectedly and just feel so anxious ALL the time. I loved that boy - my only child. Thanks for listening.

Jun 26, 2014
Loss of a child is so hard
by: Jaime

I am so sorry for your loss. I also lost my only child when she was 24. Life has never been the same. You will always have her in your heart, and I am sure she is in heaven looking down and being your guardian angel. There is nothing I can say to relieve your pain. It is a process and my prayer is that you will remain strong and over come and move on.

Jun 26, 2014
Missing my Kyle
by: Anonymous

June 15th, 2012 I lost my oldest son to Fentynol and Heroin overdose. Im lost forever and all I want to say is its the worse thing a mother could ever go through, his younger brother is 22 and is also has an addiction. My life is a mess and I pray everyday that I will get through this because if I have to remain on this earth without him, its going to take the will of God for me to see myself belong in this world somewhere. The only thing that keeps me going is his daughter he left behind, she is him madeover. I can tell you what it feels like to mourn yourself close to death because I feel like that is what Im doing. I visit his grave just about everyday because it is on my way home from work. He was loved so much, there are so many flowers and letters on his headstone you can barely see it, I had my first dream about him last night and his little girl was asleep right beside me, it was a good dream...thank God...and I hope he is singing with the Angels as loud as he was singing in my dream. God bring you peace..may he wrap his arms around you and give you strength...God Bless.

Jun 26, 2014
Your daughter
by: Anonymous

Your daughter sounds so wonderful. I'm so very sorry for your loss. Heroin takes our young talented and very much loved children. Heroin is the worst drug ever. I am heartbroken as well, as I loss my son to heroin.

Jun 26, 2014
Your daughter
by: Kate

My heart feels for you. I lost my son to an accidental overdose of alcohol and cocaine which when mixed together creates another drug and can stop the heart and it did this. Devastation ! To loose our child in this type manner,knowing their real wonderful self is the most tragic loss. It has been a year and a half for me and I struggle with this pain all the time. I miss my wonderful son. I know you feel the depth of sorrow that I do. We all cannot understand this pain and hurt that we must learn to bear. It is not what we expected and the wound is deep. Take one moment at a time,we have an emotional ride that is horrid but we do somehow go on. My heart is with you.

Jun 25, 2014
lost my sweet loving daughter at 24
by: Doreen UK

Cathy I am so sorry for your loss of your daughter Randi to a sudden death. This is such a careless tragedy, that has robbed you of your happiness and life with your daughter. This is a crime (homicide) and should be treated as such. I feel so angry about the way your daughter was manipulated and abused by someone who was very stupid and careless. In a moment of weakness any of our children could give in and THEN it is ALL TOO LATE.
I am anxious and waiting for my daughter to return from a vacation in Thailand. She walked out on her abusive friend and ready to come home early this morning, just because she declined to go to a beach rave party where drugs were used. her friend used a drug and looked as if she was possessed. My daughter chose to sit out, and her friend went angry and started abusing her and tearing her to pieces. I have been on email all morning trying to pick up the pieces and support her and give her all the encouragement and strength. I am proud of her for daring to be different. But it has taught her much about her friend and me much about how difficult the world is for our children/adult children. Some people destroy their own lives and try to take other's down with them. How evil is this. All one can do as a mother is to cover her children in Prayer and ask God to watch over them all the time when we have had to let them go, because they are now adults in their own right. I lost my husband to cancer 2yrs. ago and I don't want to lose my daughter. I worry all the time as a mom.

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