Lost my wife of 44 years because of my drinking
I drank on occasion, but when I drank it was too much. My wife never approved of me drinking so I would sneak around to drink. Only beer, 2-on the way home from work, or I would get a 4 pack and ride around the contry side drinking them. Over the past 5 years I have been stoped by the law 4 times. I have aquired 4 DUI's now and in my state it is a fellony with jail time. I have a lawyer that thinks he can keep me from going to jail. I have enrolled in a alchol & drug rehab center here in my home town. I have completed a 90 day program and have started into a half-way program. I really have no desire to drink ever again now. It is a Christ based rehab with good results. In the past I usually lied to my wife about where I was or what I was doing in order to cover up for the drinking. Now my wife wants a divorce because of my lieing. Yes, I was wrong to lie to my wife and I was wrong to be drinking behind her back. I can only hope and pray that she will not go through with the divorce. We have been together since we were in our teens, we have two grown children, 5 grandchildren and have always had a wonderful life together except for me having a few beers a few times a week. I love my wife and have for more than 44 years. She says she loves me also, but won't have any thing to do with me. I have asked for forgiveness from her and God. She says she forgives but she can't get beyond my lieing to her. I feel like God has forgiven me, why can't she? I am at the end of my rope. I have done all I can think of to do to make her happy but nothing works. Can any one help? Any advise will be considered thank you.
One Too Meny