lost not only my mum but also my best friend
mum and I were so close, went shopping together, saw each other nearly every day. She helped me bring up my daughter when my ex husband walked out. gossiped on the phone most days, now she's gone and so suddenly.
We had chatted on the telephone on the Monday before, said goodnight, see you tomorrow - but when I called round the next day I found her sitting in her chair. I had to call the medics, they had to break in and then I had to be interviewed by the police and wait for the undertaker to take her away, it was the most awful day in my life.
This happed just six weeks ago but seems much longer. Now, although I try not to I break down most days. I realise I have to carry on and in fact am arranging to join a ladies group and I have promised my daughter she can have a puppy in the hope that will ease the pain. But the pain I feel when I wake up each day is horrible.
I still have to take her ashes to place with my dads, but my brother is no help and now it looks as though I will have to see to this with my daughter. I understand that my brother may not feel strong enough but I would have appreciated his support.
My daughter keeps telling me that mum is happy reunited in heaven with dad - I have my faith and that does give me some comfort, but is there anyone out there that can help with how to stop the tears and how do deal with a broken heart