Lost Sheep

I lost my husband Dave in June, 2008, the day after his birthday. It was just the two of us, we had no children. Now I live alone with our 2 cats. I am finding it difficult to move on. Dave had diabetes and issues with his heart. We had been married 26 years. He said he wanted to work until the day he dropped and that's exactly what happened. He went to sleep and never woke up. I live in Ohio and have 2 older sisters in TX and Dave's parents in PA. Dave used to say our home was "our little piece of heaven." I work a full time job but I still have a lot of things in the house that were Dave's and I have his ashes. For 3 years no one came in my house. Finally I decided to see if I could meet another person. I met someone and after dating him for six months I was scammed out of $1,500. Dave owned a semi truck and was gone 5 days a week. I am used to being alone but I don't like it. Well here comes Thanksgiving and I will be alone with the cats. I am planning on retirement next year. I started working right after high school and will have worked 48 years full time. Dave's CB handle was "Shepard" and I was "Lost Sheep."

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Nov 16, 2012
Lost Sheep
by: Doreen U.K.

"Lost Sheep" I am sorry for your loss of your husband suddenly. It doesn't seem fair that you will retire soon and looking forward to what you have earned throughout your working life and now you sit alone.
This is what I am going through. 44yrs. marriage and Steve dies of cancer 6 months ago. I nursed him for 3yrs.39days and He didn't get to enjoy his retirement. He died 11 months into retirement and the govenment takes back half of his pension leaving me struggling.
Steve worked all over our country and overseas for over 47yrs. I am used to long gaps with him being away from home and so I should be used to the lonliness. But I am not. I have always dreaded being LONELY. and ALONE. It feels like an eternity. I am retired and living with my youngest daughter. 3 Adult children all living their own lives. I wouldn't have it any other way. I want them to enjoy life as I did when they were young. But I do feel forgotton. When I can find my feet again I will do some voluntary work to keep me going as this is what I loved. Being busy. But I am of an age where I also need to take it easy and not WORK at all. But doing nothing makes things worse. I don't know what I want to do with my life. Some people love their own company and quite happy to be on their own. I am not of them. I love being with people.
Perhaps your sisters and Dave's parents may be able to find a solution to you being on your own by spending time with each other. I know it takes money to be able to travel and this can be a problem. this causes more lonliness when lack of money limits our freedom to do what we want to do. I hope something works out for you and you can get to enjoy life again only in a different way that all us widows now find ourselves having to do being thrown in at the deep end.

Nov 15, 2012
I'm sorry for your lost
by: yolanda

I'm sorry for your lost, my daughter died in her sleep Sept.11,2012 also. Maybe you need to move to Texas, start a new life, be smart of who you come across their are so many dishonest people out there.
Get yourself into a project, anything that you would like, music, art, writing, storyteller, helping others, foster a child, or a pet.. their is so much to do in this world. I'm a Producer and Director in films and also I'm putting a magazine out soon, my daughter was so proud of me..You have to live for husband for yourself, we need to honor their name..Learn something new, give yourself that!

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