lost with out you....

by SHARRON
(CHICAGO)

I WAS LIKE MOM TO MY BROTHER I TOOK CARE OF HIM WHEN HE WAS LITTLE.I AM THE OLDEST OF 9 KIDS I KIND OF TOOK ON THE ROLL OF MOM WITH ALL OF THEM.HE WAS THE 4TH BORN AND HE WAS THE MOST WONDERFUL PERSON YOU COULD MET.HIS SMILE WOULD LIGHT UP A ROOM WHEN YOU ARE SAD HE WOULD MAKE YOU FEEL SO MUCH BETTER.HE HAD A HARD CHILDHOOD WHEN HE WAS LIKE 2 OR 3 YEARS OF AGE HIS FATHER WAS KILLED RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIM AND HIS LITTLE BROTHER WHO WAS 1 YEARS OLD.AT THE TIME.WE ALMOST LOST HIM WHEN HE WAS A BABY HE GOT SICK AND ALMOST DIED.AS HE GROW UP HE WAS HANGIG OUT WITH THE WRONG PEOPLE. GETTING IN TO ALL TYPE OF THINGS.GOING TO JAIL.GETTING OUT GOING BACK.ALL HIS LIFE SO IN 2008 WE LOST OUR GRANDMOTHER WHO WAS THE BACK BONE OF THE FAMILEY SO HE HAD LEARN THAT THE THINGS HE WAS DOING WAS NOT OK.SO HE WAS GETTING HIS LIFE ON TRACK.HE STOP DOING BAD THINGS.HE WOULD HELP ANY BODY THAT NEED HELP.SO IN 2009 I HAD MY SON HE WAS SO HAPPY THAT I HAD A BOY HE SAID HE WILL NEVER DO ANYTHING BAD.HE HAD TO HELP RAISE HIM TO BE A MAN NOT TO DO THE THIGS HE DONE.IN 2010 SOMEBODY BLAMEND HIM FOR SOMETHING HE DIDNT DO AND HE WENT TO JAIL HE STAYED IN JAIL INTILL 2-22-12.WHEN HE WAS IN JAIL HE FOUND GOD AND GAVE HIS SELF TO GOD.HE CAME HOME ON 2-22-12 WE WAS SO HAPPY AND JOYFUL TO HAVE HIM HOME.HE FOUND A JOB STAYED OUT OF TROBLE.WE NEVER INMAGIE SOMETHING WOULD HAPPEN.SO ON 4-22-12 ON A SUNDAY SOMEONE GUNNED HIM DOWN ON THE STREETS THEY SHOT HIM IN COLD BLOOD THEY DID NOT NO HIM OR EVEN CARED HE HAD FAMILEY THAT LOVE HIM.I HAVE NOT SAT DOWN AND CRYED I TRY TO STAY STRONG FOR MY FIVE KIDS.IT HURT SO BAD HIS BRITHDAY IS IN JULY WITH MINE I DONT KNOW WHAT TO THINK OR ACT.BUT I NO HE IS IN THE BEST KINGDOM OF ALL AND I WILL SEE HIM AGIN.BUT I NEED TO CRY. MY HEART IS BROKEN IN TWO WHY DO I FEEL SO BLUE I LOOK UP IN THE SKY I SEE YOUR SMILE.I LOVE MY LITTLE BROTHER.

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Jun 27, 2012
Lost without YOU
by: Doreen U.K.

Dear Sharron,
I am sorry for the loss of your brother. It is so sad that he had a troublesome life and then when he gets his life back on track something like this happens to cause a tragedy for the family.
It sounds like you have no family support and that you are in a difficult place right now struggling with your feelings and emotions. If you haven't had counselling at all you may try this as you have experienced a sudden death. The type of death affects the grief. Everyone grieve's differently. You haven't cried yet because your emotions are frozen. This is natures way of helping us to survive a tragedy. This is the first stage of grief which is to feel numb. You won't be able to grieve till you get beyond this stage. This is where a bereavement counsellor comes in to support you whilst you work out your feelings and release a lot of the pain you are in. Sadly we all go through this pain. Often it can be unbearable which is why the support of a counsellor is helpfull at this time. It is good that your brother found God. He will be in a better place and out of suffering and you will see him again. This world we are all passing through and when we get to our eternal home we will never suffer again. Let us all live with the HOPE of a better world when Jesus comes back for us as he promised in the Bible. We have to sorrow but with Hope. I hope in the days ahead that you will be supported and be able to grieve for your brother till the pain gets less and you are able to cope. You have many children and you need to be in good health for them. See if you can get help and support with someone to look after your children so that you can have some time for yourself and find a way through this Hell you are in just now. Best wishes.

Jun 27, 2012
Lost without YOU
by: Doreen U.K.

Dear Sharron,
I am sorry for the loss of your brother. It is so sad that he had a troublesome life and then when he gets his life back on track something like this happens to cause a tragedy for the family.
It sounds like you have no family support and that you are in a difficult place right now struggling with your feelings and emotions. If you haven't had counselling at all you may try this as you have experienced a sudden death. The type of death affects the grief. Everyone grieve's differently. You haven't cried yet because your emotions are frozen. This is natures way of helping us to survive a tragedy. This is the first stage of grief which is to feel numb. You won't be able to grieve till you get beyond this stage. This is where a bereavement counsellor comes in to support you whilst you work out your feelings and release a lot of the pain you are in. Sadly we all go through this pain. Often it can be unbearable which is why the support of a counsellor is helpfull at this time. It is good that your brother found God. He will be in a better place and out of suffering and you will see him again. This world we are all passing through and when we get to our eternal home we will never suffer again. Let us all live with the HOPE of a better world when Jesus comes back for us as he promised in the Bible. We have to sorrow but with Hope. I hope in the days ahead that you will be supported and be able to grieve for your brother till the pain gets less and you are able to cope. You have many children and you need to be in good health for them. See if you can get help and support with someone to look after your children so that you can have some time for yourself and find a way through this Hell you are in just now. Best wishes.

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