"Lost Without You"

by Pennylane Baze

My name is Pennylane im 40 yrs old. My father died when i was 18 yrs old from liver disease.Its the hardest thing i ll ever have to face in life. My parents divorced when i was 1yr old. My father got custody of me and my sister Gloria who is two yrs older than me. sadly my mother died in a car wreck along with my three half brothers n 1 half sister. Her fiance died also in the accident. So my father raised us by himself,with my grandmothers help.My mothers family n my dads family didnt get along so we didnt get to go around them much. Losing my dad was and still is hard for me to deal with. I have three awsome kids and three beautiful grandbabies. The closeness that i have with my family i know that they would be lost so with that being said thank you God for my life.

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Jun 21, 2014
'24 Years Later'
by: Penny Baze

24 years ago this month god called your name,to take you to the Heaven s above. It still seems like yesterday. I miss you so much. Love you daddy.

Jan 14, 2014
Sad but not angry.
by: Penny Baze

This month is always so depressing for me. My fathers birthday is on the 31st he would ve been 62. Although its been 23 yrs that he passed i still miss him so much. The anger i felt for so long after his death is better. He had a choice to live or die and he chose to die. He was an alcoholic and it killed him at only 39. I ll never understand why but im not angry anymore , he was a wonderful father and i will always love him.

Feb 01, 2013
Daddy's Bday
by: Pennylane

January 31st,my father would ve been 61 yrs old. Sharing my story has helped me,mentally and emotionally. Now when i look at his pictures i smile,no more tears cause i know thats what he would want.I ve tried so hard over the years to understand why God would take my father from my sister and I.,he was my everything and all i knew.Thanks to revover-from-grief, i now understand. Thank you so much. HAPPY BFAY DADDY I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH.

Jan 31, 2013
Thank You, PennyLane
by: D.J.


thank you for sharing about your wonderful father. he truly was a caring and giving man to have raised all of you as he did, how he did, seeing no difference in any of you. I've learned that time does not always make the hurt any less, but keeping your father in your heart and mind he is never too far from you. Never forget your daddy and all you learned from him. Continue to share with your kids and grandkids all the wonderful memories so they know from whence they came. your heart is full of love for them and for your father. Remember if it were not for this wonderful man, you would not be here and your beautiful family would not be here for you to love. Strange how God works at times, but somehow in the end we tend to realize all things have a reason, a purpose. We're around the same age and I lost my dad when i was turning 17. He was my world, and much like your dad, a kind and caring man who raised my half siblings as if they were his own. He raised me and taught me so much in the 16 years I actually was around him. As I've gotten older, I've found myself duplicating his traits and being told by others how caring I am about others much like him. You see, Pennylane, all we have are our fathers examples and look how far we've come. We miss them terribly, but we know that we will see them again one day. Keep beng who you are, continue to love your kids and grand youngens, continue to make your daddy proud. You are, Pennylane and forever will be, your Daddy's Little Girl.

Jan 26, 2013
"Lost Without You"
by: Doreen U.K.

Pennylane I am sorry for your loss of your father many years ago. Because both sides of your parents families did not get on you will have lost the relatives as a result. This is all too often a fact of life. Families don't always get on and it does affect your grief. I am glad you have God in your life and that you have children and grandchildren. You are thankfull even in the midst of sorrow and this is where our help come's from. GOD. He is our sustainer. But we have to dwell on the earth and we do need people around us. God created it this way. Thank you for your post. It was a Blessing.

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