love you millions mam and miss you every single day!!

by Shelley
(UK )

I can not believe i am writing this, i will never forget the night for the rest of my life. I tried to ring my mam (as we spoke about 3 times a day!!) but no answer so i thought she had popped out but when i kept trying and no answer i knew something was wrong i just knew she was gone. My lovely mam had suffered a heart attack and had not suffered at all but i was so angry Why did it happen? why my mam? She was only 62 and had still loads of time to give. I always new losing my mam/best friend would be hard but not like this. I feel lost, vulnerable, alone and much more. I just can't believe my mam has gone for good, how do you carry on?? i will carry on and keep making her proud but somedays i just can't think straight.
Would love just one phone phone call, one more hug, one more laugh well the truth is i just want her back!

love you millions mam and always will xxxx

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Jul 11, 2012
love you millions mam and miss you every single day!!
by: Doreen U.K.

Shelley I am sorry for the loss of your mam. This is the hardest part of our grief. Our loved one is gone forever. They are not coming back. You have to execute the duty of removing their clothes and belongings as one does. It hurts. It feels as if that person we loved did not exist. I lost my husband 8 weeks ago from cancer. I sat here yesterday thinking. HE LEFT EVERYTHING BEHIND. He took nothing with him. WHY! do we live with so much that we can't take with us. It is painfull distributing their goods to family, friends, and to charity. Steve's cowboy boots are still sitting in the hall. His guitar in the corner. His picture on the wall. I WILL CRY FOREVER. Shelley you will have days of grief when all you want is your mam back. Like I want my STeve back. I want him back so badly MY HEART BLEEDS. I wanted the good times to last forever. but it seems only the grief will stay forever. You say in your post. How do I go on? ONE DAY AT A TIME!. This is all any of us grieving a loss can do. Don't look too far ahead. None of us knows what tomorrow will bring. Live for the day. Live for the moment as this is all we have. I used to rise in the morning and say. THIS IS THE DAY THE LORD HAS GIVEN. I WILL BE GLAD AND REJOICE IN IT. This sort of blesses your day. We have been given the opportunity to see another day. WE have to make the most of it whether we want it or not. Shelley. SEIZE THE DAY AND LIVE IT WELL. Best wishes.

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