Love

It had been so long since I took a chance on love. After the first date & as I fell in love with his smile- I knew this could be tough.
It all went so well. The dating- was perfect. The courting, the casual flirting & all of it reciprocated. So I took the chance. We both thought we were ready. Even after sorting out all the "stuff" from our past- we were willing to take a chance.
But now, 3 1/2 years later, it's all over. The ideas of a life partner- gone. All the promises of being there- gone. It's hard to believe. I can't accept it. I mean, I will- but sometimes I want to refuse & just pick up the phone and take off where we left off.
I know it will be for the best. We both gave up some of the important stuff we had to work through- and just thought our love- could make it all OK. But the reality of day to day- took hold.
We HAVE to all face our own "stuff". No one can just make it go away. No matter how much they accept and love you. And then saying- "it's OK that you need this time and space & I realize I can't help you"- WOW! This is hard. But I'm going to do it. I'm going to be OK & I'm going to be strong. Even with tears in my eyes.