Low battery

by Carly
(Tel Aviv)

My dad died on April 13th, 2010, three days after my 23rd birthday. Today has been, for some reason, particularly difficult. I feel like right now I would give anything in the world to go back to six months ago, or a year ago, to my innocence, and stay there forever.

I just want to chat with him. Watch the Wimbledon, hate the Red Sox and cheer for the Yankees. I feel like the death of my father has forced me to grow up in a way that I never wanted to, at least not in my early twenties. My heart hurts every day to be with him, and I still live in eternal shock, even while his body lies in a cemetery on Long Island, and his gold necklace that he wore daily lies on my neck.

The things I once did no longer bring me the same pleasure. I feel as if my charge has run out... my battery is low, I have no reception.

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Apr 20, 2011
I know how it feels
by: Anonymous

I lost my papa on 21.3.2011. I also feel I am too young to handle the grief. Just 23 n attending college. My bro is only 21. I even need him as my shopping partner. How am I to survive this? But what has surprised me is the fact that there is some power to take you through when you thought you would'nt survive. We have financial problems besides everything else. Still something tells me we'll be through. Papa is our guardian angel now. So is your dad for you.

Oct 13, 2010
Recharge
by: Amelia

I understand the feeling of growing up when you aren't meant to. I was 22 when my Dad died. I remember feeling that all my friend's troubles were pretty pathetic after that. I always felt immature compared to people my age, now I feel like I have overtaken them. The only thing that makes it less awful is that we are now in a position to help our loved ones through their losses. Maybe you need to find something small to do to help you. I found going to the gym really helped me. When I got angry I would peddle really fast on the bikes, after that I felt too physically tired to feel emotionally tired.

Aug 19, 2010
GOOD DAYS/BAD DAYS
by: Anonymous

THERE ARE DAYS WHEN IT GETS BETTER AND THEN OUT OF THE BLUE A DAY WILL COME WHEN IT HITS YOU FOR NO REASON AT ALL. ON THOSE DAYS JUST HANG ON

Jul 06, 2010
Loss
by: Anonymous

I lost my mother when I way 15 and my father when I was 26. At 21 I lost a baby girl that was only a day old. Then this May I lost my baby and only son. The pain is so great. I can truly say I know what you are going through and my thoughts are with you.

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