On July 14th 2012 I lost the love of my life,he was healty and so full of life,he made me laugh a real comedian, didn't look anywhere near his 74yrs i like to think i kept him young. we went out for dinner left the restaurant to visit family took with pains in his back, rushed him to the hospital he had an anurisum whick broke, he didn't make it to the operating table. so my life ended that day, I just had to see him because i couldn't believe it, there is no way he would just leave me like that.we were always together, if he was washing the car i would sit out and watch him just to make sure he didn;t miss a spot,i used to say that car gets more attention then i do, and he would laugh.i miss him so much.our kids came home and the grandchildren, parts of the funeral i just cant remember. now everyone is gone back to their own lives. its just me and my memories, lot of good friends but i'm so lonely i cry going to bed and i cry when i wake up,waiting for him to make me coffee or look over and see him sleeping beside me.the first couple of weeks i was just going through the motions pains in my chest from wanting him back so bad and i have to realize hes not coming back. now i just want to be alone, where do i go from here and i know i'm not alone in my misery. i go to the cemetary everyday just to talk to him and ask why, we had such a good life, staying here in the summer and going to Toronto in the winter and then Myrtle beach for a month, dosen't take long for your life to change forever. I have my children and 4 grandchildren to think about I know they will help me. Part of me is dead right now and its going to take a long time if ever to get back to normal whatever normal is. I will miss you my darling every minute of everyday, i can still hear you saying !! good morning precious!!. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN MY LOVE.