by Ruby

Here I am again, it will be 12 weeks on sat and my birthday is on sunday, he was supposed to be here to celebrate with me.I am so alone my kids are away and i don't know what to do.I don't want to leave until i get his monument up.holidays is so very hard. we were in toronto with the kids in may and we celebrated his birthday, in just a couple of months my life ended.I wake up in the morning and hes not with me,all i can think of is where do i go from here,shopping is out of the question,how can you shop for one person.I get in the car and i drive and cry,and i have to pull over and stop crying.I go on the computer and look at all the pictures,where we went on vacation, we had booked Myrtle beach for 2 months so i had to phone and cancell, just awhile before that, he said if i could just get 2 more trips to myrtle beach,but i guess that wasn't meant to be.I can't go alone.i feel like my life is over.

Comments for MACK

Click here to add your own comments

Nov 22, 2012
How do i go on without you.
by: Ruby

4 months ago my husband passed away, I feel worse now than when he passed.I can't imaging 4 months have gone by just like it was a dream,but i am not waking up,the other night i had a dream and he came back to me,it was so real and i knew he wouldn't leave me,but it was just a dream and he wasn't beside me.i really don't know how to go on without him,we spent so much time together we knew what the other was thinking. the pains in my heart is not getting any better, only worse.I just came to spend some time with the kids for christmas,but i am really not interested in anything,i just can't get into it, I go through the stores what do i need NOTHING because what i want i can't have and can never have to me its hopeless, I can't see it getting any better anytime soon,because i will never get over him,he will always be with me i take him in my heart everywhere i go. always have his picture by my bed,watching me while i sleep. until we meet again my love.

Oct 04, 2012
by: Doreen U.K.

Ruby I know what you mean. I lost my husband 5 months ago tomorrow and it sure feels like 5 years. I also don't know how I will get through life without my husband.
I wake up in the morning and can't believe he is gone. It feels as if he is slipping away from all the memories we had. I am now left thinking where did all those 44yrs go. A man spends most of his time at work and gets home late. My husband was in retirement. Now is the time I would have settled for quantity time. Now nothing. I just hope that God will be kind to me and not allow me to spend 30yrs, or even 20yrs, or 10yrs. on my own without my husband. I would see this as punishment.
We have no CHOICE to go on with Life ALONE. How we live it is not going to be easy. Life did stop for me the day my husband died. I am sure that God won't mind if it takes us some time to figure out how we move on with a life that has no meaning now. I hope that you will be able to find some Comfort and Peace in the days ahead as you sorrow for your loss. I am in the same place.

Click here to add your own comments

Return to Lost Spouse/ True Love.

[?]Subscribe To This Site
  • follow us in feedly
  • Add to My Yahoo!
  • Add to My MSN
  • Subscribe with Bloglines

RSS Feed Widget


Tap into the compassion, support and wisdom of the


Essential Healing Guide

Grief Relief

Free Griefwork

Free Stress

SBI Video Tour!