made it through the day
Yesterday was Bryan's birthday. My two daughters and I went out to see Bryan. When we got there we noticed that the flowers we had put in our vase had blown away. So we went to the store and got some floral foam and two black roses. I would have gotten three roses, but they didn't have a white rose in stock. Bryan and the girls love black roses. My favorite has always been white. Any time Bryan bought me roses they where white to symbolize our pure love for each other.
I will be on the lookout for another bouquet to go with the black roses. While we were at the store we automatically went to the hot wheels. Bryan and the girls collected hot wheels, so we got him a happy birthday hot wheel, as we always try to do on his birthday. We didn't get to stay at the cemetery very long as it was really cold and windy.
On the drive there and back I couldn't quit crying. I cried on and off most of the day and night. I asked God and Bryan to please help me get through the rest of my life, as I don't know how to do it alone. I believe that God has made Bryan my guardian angel. I hope that he is, because I can't do this without him. Baby we love you and miss you so much. Happy birthday Bryan.