Making a choice to heal
In the beginning there is no light every daybreak is a painful reminder of the rest of your life without your husband. The last thought is of him and the first thought is that he's gone. The agony is unbearable. Then someone asked me if I was ready to choose. I had no idea what they were talking about but they said are you ready to choose to heal. I was insulted heal I would never heal. But there is an unavoidable truth it is simply that life will demand an answer no matter how many tears you shed you cannot change the truth, no matter how many prayers you say you cannot change the truth. You must choose to stay in the darkness or step into the light and heal. You cannot rush it you cannot stop it, it will come and you will heal. Not quickly but slowly and trust me the first time you laugh it will shock you. But soon slowly life will call you back to the day to day wonder of it all and you will smile and thank God for the happiness you had. Be thankful some never know the gift of love.