Mama love you so much.

by Bertha a Mendoza
( Indio ca )

Ronnie my son I love you so very much,I miss so much you are the lite of my soul and turn off the day the you decide to take yur life.

After suffering for many years of mental illness my son took his life of the age of 31 years old .my life is empty with out him only his pictures and memories keep alive .

I do have a hold in hart the is in pain . But Ronnie mama love you so much

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Apr 27, 2011
Suicide Really SUCKS!
by: Dakota Blues

I am so sorry for your loss! Suicide really - REALLY sucks. My daughter took her life 3 years ago. We had no idea what was in her pretty little head. We actually thought she was content and normal! She was 25 years old.

I can't help but believe that our children would...take it back if they could. I don't believe they wanted to die, per se, but end the pain they were feeling at that given moment. Surely, it would KILL THEM if they knew how messed up their MOMS are!!!

I basically went into hiding after her death. I recently...came out of the closet - out of the darkness. We'll see how that works for me. We are social beings and the isolation and depression was getting too heavy to carry any longer - going it alone.

I stepped into a new church in Jan. They have been very supportive and loving. I can't help but wonder if this church, literally, will save my life as they gently guide me back into the land of the living. Do I still have purpose and meaning?

I am not a master at taking one-day-at-a-time but I think that is key to keeping our sanity. The future seems so sad and scary...and the past is so dreadfully painful. Our children would want us to live. WE all know that it isn't that simple to live without them.

Baby steps towards healing and getting stronger. Our pain for our beloved children never leaves us. How amazing is a mother's love! We need to learn how to cope and manage this pain as so many who have walked before us instruct us to do.

You are in my thoughts and prayers - Hugs~

Apr 01, 2011
A Mother's Love
by: Anonymous

My son also completed suicide 6 months ago he was 36 yrs. old.I know the pain you are feeling,it's like the candle in your soul was snuffed out with one blow. I don't know when the tears stop or slow down it hasn't happened for me,today has been a very emotional day for me,that is why I am back here reading & writing it reminds me I'm not alone on this horrible journey.The bond between a Mother & her son is one of the strongest,I have come to realize that bond will never be broken,not even by death.My heart will forever be missing the piece he took with him.I am so sorry you had to join me & the other parents on this journey to a new unwelcome life. I will pray for you.
One broken heart to another

Apr 01, 2011
Love
by: Kay

Hello
I understand your pain...and I am so sorry to hear about your son.I too lost my precious son at 23,only last year.The pain is something so deep and so real.We as mothers who have had such a huge loss can understand each others pain.I send you all my love and healing.It is a slow painful journey we must travel but we can only take one step at a time..... I am thinking of you.xxx

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