by Mary Ann
My mom died nine months ago. I am single, and though I work, I was also her primary caregiver. She had mid-stage Alzheimer's and other issues related to age and heart disease - she was 90.
But that's not who she was -- who we used to be. She was a beautiful, wonderful smart, loving woman -- and now nothing in my life seems to make sense.
I am heartbroken, and I'd rather not be around people - they just don't get it - it hurts so bad. On a practical level, I do know I have plenty to live for, but on an emotional level, I really don't see the point. I can't stop crying -- my siblings are in pain too, and I'm not sure that we're very much help to each other right now. It's no fun being an orphan!