He was beautiful. He could make me laugh in any situation. He could do no wrong in my eyes. No one could understand the love that we shared. We were young. I still am and he still would be. But it didn't matter. I swear he asked me to marry him every single day and it didn't matter that there was no ring, we just knew what the future held. He would hold me so tight that I'm shocked we could breathe, but I wouldn't have asked him to let me go for all of the riches in the world. I lost him in May.

Friday the 14th my life came to a screeching halt. I was starting college, we had a plan. But that suddenly didn't matter when he fell asleep at the wheel and his airbag didn't deploy. I thought he was indestructible. He was strong and now suddenly he was helpless. I was helpless. I had lost the man who gave me strength and reason to be alive.

I keep his beautifully written poems and his artwork but it's not enough to satisfy the empty hole that I have in my heart. Matthew tells me he loves me in discrete ways that only I understand. I am incredibly lucky to have a guardian angel like him but it doesn't fill the emptiness. I miss you and Love you.

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Apr 06, 2011
M Mack
by: Loosing Matthew

I am so sorry for your loss and at such a tender age. I never understand why God chooses to take such wonderful people from us. It sounds like Matthew was special and a very kind loving young man.

You don't have any choices but to go through the stages of grief. It's hard and the road is long. Don't fight it, cry when you need to and know you are not alone here. Many come to this site to read old and new posts. You may find comfort by writing and knowing so many others have gone through this, some new and others in older stages. Whatever it takes, please go through the steps patiently. Our motto here is one breath, one step one day at a time. Take care of yourself and my heart goes out to you for I truly relate to your very raw and numbing pain. I've been there and it's over eight months since I lost the love of a lifetime. You will recover In your own time since everyone's grief is different. My prayers are with you.

Apr 06, 2011
Any You Always Will
by: Anonymous

You will always love and miss Matthew. No matter what direction your life takes he will always be part of it. His body is gone but the love never dies. He really is a guardian angel.
Pray for his soul and live your life in a way that would make him proud. Be happy.
God bless.

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