May 2 Is Still the Worst Day of My Life!
On May 2, 2010, I lost my mother to ovarian cancer. She was only 68. I can't believe its been three years since I lost her. One day she was fine and the next she was sick and five months later she was gone. She was buried in New Jersey and I live in Florida. I try to go to the cemetery at least once a year. The last time I went was in November of 2012. My Dad doesn't see the point in me going because he believes it is a long trip just to see a headstone. I asked him why we buried her if no one was going there. He said "We had to put her body somewhere". We're Jewish so cremation was out of the question. I disagree with my Dad because even though she's in the ground, this is where her body is. Her soul is gone, but this is her final resting place. Am I being unrealistic?
May 2nd may just be another day to some people, but it means so much more to me and I don't know how to remember her on this day since I can't go to the cemetary. I decided to go to work as I hoped to keep myself busy so I can get through the day. I'm afriad if I stay home, I'll think about her too much. One thing I plan to do is to light a Yarsite candle in her memory.
I'm up for any ideas! Thanks!