My beautiful daughter Melanie died on the 07.12.2010 we went through so much together she was 25 she had diabetes an suffered for 15 years an then when things looked like they were finally going to change the hospital overdosed her and she was gone . No one knows how much I grief every day gets harder people think I should be over it . How can you get over it I fell so guilty I should of protected my baby. now all I have is a urn that I look at an kiss every day. My heart is broken an I fell like I died that day . I feel alone my parents died when I was 19 I have 4 girls an have brought them up on my own an My 24 year old Alicia has diabetes to an is studying pediatrics an has been my rock she did all the arrangements cause I couldn't cope an she is so far away she is in Brisbane an Jess the 21 year old is just drinking to cope an MY baby who was Mels Brookie baby who is 12 is just not coping its hard to stand there an watch someone die that you love so much in front of you an you cant do anything to stop it an im so sad I cant help them . So now Im letting them down to I just want to turn back the clock an have my beautiful girl back its not fair She will be in my heart for ever an a piece of me went with her that day an one day we will be all together again never to be parted again the chain will be linked again love you my beautiful girl mum xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
