by Melissa
(Jackson, MI)

I lost the love of my life, my darling husband of 33 years, Richard. He had pancreatic cancer and lingered over 2 years with it. He fought as hard as he could. I miss him so much, that I feel like I am dying inside. I went back to school to get my degree, but now I am burned out from school and job. It has been 2 1/2 years, will this sadness and depression ever end? I am crying right now just trying to write this. He was only 52. He died 8 days before Christmas, and I hate the holidays more than ever before.

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Jun 10, 2012
My Tina does not need her wheelchair,for she is now walking in heaven
by: Tom

I understand your pain!! I lost my Tina 5 years ago to Myotonic Muscular Dystrophy. She was in a wheelchair for 18 years until her death in 06' at the age of 55. Her last 4 years were spent in a long term care state hospital but we made the best of it. The night she died my sons and I cried and I told them that my life will NEVER be the same again. It has gotten a little bit better? Put a picture of your husband on the Christmas tree to remind you of him. I find some peace with just "walking on the beach" reflecting on the 31 years of marriage that Tina and I had together. We now have 2 sons and 5 grandkids. She is watching them all from heaven!

Jun 04, 2012
Similar Story
by: Muriel

Your story is my story. I also lost my husband of 33 years to cancer of the common bile duct, pretty much the same thing. That was years ago and I still feel the loss. Maybe these men were the loves of our lives and we were blessed to have them so long. Better loveliness to remember for a lifetime that a bad marriage to regret.

Jun 04, 2012
How are you Melissa?
by: Joseph

Dear Melissa, so sorry for your loss, It will become better do you have some one to talk to about this. Your feelings of what your going through? When you wrote this out it does sound like you in a place to raise up and become happier in your life. Start with little things like a walk as your walking notice the birds in the trees singing, something that brings happiness to you see the beauty around you with family and friends.

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