Memorial Day (weekend) 2010
Memorial Day is to honor all those that fought for our freedom. Even the freedom to have that cookout with friends and family.
My husband fought in the Gulf war yet I cannot get his ashes buried in a veterans memorial cemetery. He worked most memorial days in the past because he was a "working man" with little benefits or paid holidays.
As this holiday passes and soon his birthday 06/04/64, Fathers Day, My birthday, and the 4th of July I try to keep my chin up, it will have been 6 months 2 days after his birthday. I try to stay strong but it is hard to keep up a celebratory face when you know he's not here to celebrate. Trimming bushes yesterday was his job along with all the other yard work. In the yard or in the garage brings on that uncomfortable tightness in my chest that signifies the lonesomeness I feel without him.
I know somehow he is up there watching over my son and I. I miss him and will evermore....HH