Memories I Lost
by Elizabeth McL
At the age of 56, I'm still looking to recover my memories of my dad. Being that my dad passed away suddenly when I was 8ys old, I can't seem to remember anything, accept seeing him laying in a casket. I've made so many bad choices growing up, and I blame the loss of my father for that. My choice in relationships with men, always became somewhat of a mental abuse relationship. I allowed the abuse, by not standing up for myself.
When I met my husband of 30 yrs, he respected me, but I still find myself letting him be hurtful to me. It's at these times, I miss my dad, I know he would have taught me better. I want to so much, reach for his hand, and ask him for help. I close my eyes to imagine him telling me what to do.
Oh,,,how I long for his direction.