Mike, Mom and Dad
I lost my dear husband November 23, 2010 after a year and a half of fighting esophageal cancer. He was a strong man, a good man, a great Dad and the best friend I ever had.
I also lost my Mom March 2, 2010 and my Dad October 16, 2010. We lost Jean, an Aunt this year and my dad's brother and sister last fall, two weeks apart from each other.
I have hit the ground. This is taking me to my knees and I need help getting through this. I've never felt so alone.
Mike and I have two adult children...our son is married with a baby on the way. I should be excited about my first grandchild. I am not.... and that makes me feel bad. All I can think of is how much the baby is going to miss without my Dad and Mike in their lives. He would of been a GREAT Grandpa.
Our Daughter left the country last August to work in Italy. This broke his heart that she left him like that. When it was time for hospice, she came home, but by then the cancer was in his brain and well..
At any rate, that's the gist of what happened to us this year. Getting old sucks.
This grief is unbearable at times.... my face leaks all the time. I get home from work, put jammies on and cry... (this week anyway, it's cold out there in the tundra).
Thanks for listening, reading.. I hope somehow with all of you, we can help each other get through this horrible grief.
I am checking on grief counseling this week also... I know I'm going to need more help. anyone else try this yet and did it help you?
Thanks for listening and I hope to 'meet' you all soon.
Jean from Minnesota