Mind their own business

by Donna
(Texas)

I went into the store that I have worked at for the last seven years and quit. I told my manager that I just am not physically or emotionally ready to come back to work yet. I was always the outgoing do anything person, I'm just not that person anymore. I know that if someone, anyone was to say the wrong thing or something that I may take the wrong way I would just walk out and come back the next day and quit.

I wish people would just mind their own business and leave me alone. This time of the year also makes it really hard to go back with all the holiday pleasantries. I can't and don't want to put on that smile (it would be fake).

My manager told me that someone told him that you can't just sit around and wait for everything to be ok. You have to go out there and make it ok. Again, I wish they would mind their own business. This may be true, but I believe that the first day that goes by and I break down only three or four times, then I might be able to go back to work. Its not like I don't have anything to do workwise, I am a personal attendant for my disabled daughter.

Maybe in time when I need the extra income I will be able to go back out into the world among people and work. But for now I need to grieve the loss of my wonderful husband, my soulmate, for how ever long it takes. I know it won't be forever, I promised Bryan that before he passed.

People that haven't walked in my (our, widows/widowers) shoes just can't keep their opinions to themselves, I don't need their advice on how I am supposed to live my life, I just wish they would mind their own damn business.