Misko was my everything!!!

by Ashley Madsen
(Kenosha, WI, US)

In loving memory of my true love!!

In loving memory of my true love!!

On January 3rd of 2010, I lost the love of my life. We had been friends for 12 years and we finally crossed paths and started dating. We both were finally happy. He gave me the world and then some.

Misko was a recovering addict from Oxycontin. Well on January 3rd he relapsed and lost his battle. The fear that I had, came. Now I am lost in this world of grief and feel as though I have nowhere to turn. I'm crushed. This pain is unbearable.

I still feel as though he is coming back. Maybe its because I can't let go. I feel as though I don't know how to let go. This is the most hardest thing I ever have had to do in my 25 years of living. I know everyone says life goes on and gets better. Right now I do not feel as though the grass is greener on the other side. All I want to know is what happened that night. I will never get these answers, and I feel as though I will never get the closure that I so deeply need.

Misko was everything to me and I was finally happy in life and proud to have a man like him. I had wanted everything he was for a husband. We were finally planning our future and talking about getting married. That was ripped away in a day.

I am broken from the inside out. I am not the same person I was nor do I feel I will ever be. That night he took my heart with him. There was so many things I still had left to say and now I will never get that chance. I miss him more than anything I have ever missed before.

I love you smushface!
Jozef "Misko" Gono 03/09/1982-01/03/2010

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Apr 08, 2010
I am so sorry
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry for your loss, I do know what you are going through and your pain. I lost my love of 5 years on Dec. 19, 2010. I like you don't know how I will ever be the same again. I can't see any light as of yet. We have to believe and pray that things will get better, that is the only thing that gets me thru a day. Love and prayers to you.

Apr 04, 2010
by: Anonymous

I am very sorry for your loss. I realize it has only been a short time. It takes time to get through the grieving process.

I am sure you tried all you could help Misko with his addiction. He must have been a wonderful person for you to love so much. There are many things we have no control over but you can be sure having your love meant a lot to him. It is really unfortunate he was fighting the addiction.
You might thank God for the time you had together and give yourself a chance to heal. Someday you may only remember the good times you had.

Prayer helps as the comfort only God can give at a time like this. Time is a great healer. Just think of what a blessing it must have been for Misko knowing how much he was loved. May God be with you.

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