Misko was my everything!!!
by Ashley Madsen
In loving memory of my true love!!
Misko was a recovering addict from Oxycontin. Well on January 3rd he relapsed and lost his battle. The fear that I had, came. Now I am lost in this world of grief and feel as though I have nowhere to turn. I'm crushed. This pain is unbearable. I still feel as though he is coming back. Maybe its because I can't let go. I feel as though I don't know how to let go. This is the most hardest thing I ever have had to do in my 25 years of living. I know everyone says life goes on and gets better. Right now I do not feel as though the grass is greener on the other side. All I want to know is what happened that night. I will never get these answers, and I feel as though I will never get the closure that I so deeply need. Misko was everything to me and I was finally happy in life and proud to have a man like him. I had wanted everything he was for a husband. We were finally planning our future and talking about getting married. That was ripped away in a day. I am broken from the inside out. I am not the same person I was nor do I feel I will ever be. That night he took my heart with him. There was so many things I still had left to say and now I will never get that chance. I miss him more than anything I have ever missed before. I love you smushface! Jozef "Misko" Gono 03/09/1982-01/03/2010
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