Misko was my everything!!!
by Ashley Madsen
(Kenosha, WI, US)
In loving memory of my true love!!
On January 3rd of 2010, I lost the love of my life. We had been friends for 12 years and we finally crossed paths and started dating. We both were finally happy. He gave me the world and then some.
Misko was a recovering addict from Oxycontin. Well on January 3rd he relapsed and lost his battle. The fear that I had, came. Now I am lost in this world of grief and feel as though I have nowhere to turn. I'm crushed. This pain is unbearable.
I still feel as though he is coming back. Maybe its because I can't let go. I feel as though I don't know how to let go. This is the most hardest thing I ever have had to do in my 25 years of living. I know everyone says life goes on and gets better. Right now I do not feel as though the grass is greener on the other side. All I want to know is what happened that night. I will never get these answers, and I feel as though I will never get the closure that I so deeply need.
Misko was everything to me and I was finally happy in life and proud to have a man like him. I had wanted everything he was for a husband. We were finally planning our future and talking about getting married. That was ripped away in a day.
I am broken from the inside out. I am not the same person I was nor do I feel I will ever be. That night he took my heart with him. There was so many things I still had left to say and now I will never get that chance. I miss him more than anything I have ever missed before.
I love you smushface!
Jozef "Misko" Gono 03/09/1982-01/03/2010