miss my son omega who committed suicide

by lerato maake
(south africa)


My son committed on 17 july 2012 he was 25 years I don't remember much about those first few weeks and months. I do remember how hard it seemed to breathe. I kept waiting for the nightmare to end. It didn't. I didn't suddenly wake up and see my son sleeping in his bed or have to tell him to turn his music down. Those days ended with the ringing of the doorbell. Life as my family knew it was over. I still miss him so much I wish he was still alive

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Apr 14, 2014
Painful
by: Bart

Hi Lerato,
I understand how you feel. I've posted my story of my 17 year old son on this site too. Dying is one thing, but the idea that my son was feeling this way is what breaks my heart. I hope somehow he hears me talking to him everyday. I avoided talking to anyone for a long time, but recently I've been going to counseling, and it helps some. I've shared my story with others as well, and no one really knows what to say but I think it helps me to just get it all out. I talk to myself a lot when I'm alone, and I talk to my son, and I talk to God. I've decided that I'm just going to have to carry this sadness in me for the rest of my life. I'm trying to use my son's suicide as a way to energize me to do good in the world. I think that helping others will help me take my eyes off of my pain so that I can see others in need. I did have my son for 17 years, so I can be thankful that I had that time with him. God Bless you.

Apr 07, 2014
miss my son omega who committed suicide
by: Doreen UK

Lerato I am sorry for your loss of your son omega to suicide.
This is the worst type of grief for a mother to bear losing her adult child to suicide.
My nephew was 30yrs. of age and suffered depression and threw himself in front of an express train 9yrs. ago. My sister was so broken she could not cope and had to have a counsellor come to her home to help pick her up emotionally so that she could get up as emotionally she was so broken. A mother will never recover from her loss of a child. You will just learn to live with the pain less over years.
A mother carries her child inside her and nurtures him/her through life and then prays over him/her to live well and be safe and when they die you feel as if part of you has died also. I hope you have good family support to help you walk each day through this sorrow and grief. If you believe in God you can reach out to HIM and He will hear you and comfort you and give you His Peace. God will carry you through this grief.

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