(fox river grove il 60021)
Mom died Oct 18,2013 of lung cancer. Dad died Feb 21st, 2014 also of cancer. I took care of them the best I could. I feel like it wasn't enough because they both died. I failed them. My heart is beyond broke... I have nothing now. I have been trying to "fix" myself for months and cannot. Don't want to be on meds, afraid I won't face the pain. I promised I would take care of their old pooch Sammie. Sammie is 14.5, diabetic, high blood pressure and blind. She is what keeps me going... love her!
I have no children and a husband who says things that do not make me feel better. It has been more than 10 months and life is just too hard. I just don't know how to get to be myself again.
There is nothing I can do to bring them back...but I want myself back.Just don't know how. How long before I picture them and smile, instead of picturing them ill?