Miss you Dad today and always
by Debra Ann Hamilton
My dad became seriously ill on Jan 3 21013. He ended up in ICU on a ventilator for 7 days,,the hospital was terrible I had to watch everything they did..finally he seemed to be over the hump..on his 34th day in the hospital he was moved to an LTAC(long term acute care)He was in this hospital for 37 more days..I went to visit him everyday even though it was 40 mins.away. I could not bare the thought of him being alone.So the big day came..he was moved to a nursing facility 5 mins from my house.I thanked God everyday for giving me more time with my dad. My son was getting married on April 20th..I was very busy that week but I still found the time to visit..That Thursday he didnt seem himself..he wouldn't eat..he had a cough..Friday he went downhill..he was running a fever and having difficulty breathing. I begged him to go back to the hospital..he would not GO..Saturday morning before the wedding I went in to see him..hoping for the best..he was worse..I again begged him to please go to the hospital or he was going to die..his reply, "I am not going to die go to the wedding" I looked him in the eye..told him this was goodbye..he was the best Dad and I loved him with my whole heart. I watched my son getting married..but kept checking my phone..At 2 pm as my husband and I walked to the back of the church the doors blew open. 30 mins later I got the call he had past at 2:20. When I got the death certificate a few days the doctor had filled in his time of death as 2 pm. I believe he had made it to the church. I miss him so bad and I feel so guilty that I had left him alone to go to the wedding. He was the most self sacrifice person I know.