Miss you so much darling
Ann passed away sept 25th 2011. On the 5th july 2010 our weddiing aniversary we were told the bad news my wife had ovarian cancer.Ann had chemo and an operation more chemo and another operation and we were told her cancer had gone.After only a few months she was in and out of hospital with lots of pain and they said there was nothing more they could do.Ann was at home on morphine all through the day and night and she kept asking the doctors and nurses if they could turn off the light as she felt so bad. Ann went into a hospice and was there for 3 weeks and i stayed there with her and they could not control her pain.It was a relief for her as she suffered so much but as for me my life will never be the same again.We were married for 37 years and she was my one and only love.I still go to work i am 63 i kiss her picture on the wall when i leave in the morning and when i return at night.I cook my dinner and i sit down and tell her what i have got but it isnt as nice as what she used to cook I have 2 lovely daughters who are loving and caring and seem to be doing ok but i know as i am they are struggling too Nights are the worst and i miss our kisses and cuddles and the silence.I have been on this sight many times and have found it is helping me i have told my daughters i come on here but they have there familys so are not on there own. I go out with friends on a saturday night as we used to for many years but now there is only 3 of us and not 4.I go to see them once a week for coffee and a chat and they have been very helpful she also has lost a very good friend.I would like to thank all who write on this site for there comments that have helped me.I dont like my life at the momrment but it is made better by my children and grandchildren.