Missing and worried about my son
by Carol, Seans Mom
(Bellingham , Mass)
My Beautiful Children, Sean in the middle of his sisters who love him sooo much!
Hello, My name is Carol. I am Seans Mom. Sean died November 15,2011 very suddenly in his sleep. Well not so suddenly but he never woke up. We spend over 42 hours praying for a miracle that we did not get. My son was my oldest child of three and my only boy. He was handsome, sensitive but not perfect. Sean developed a blood clot while he slept that would end up destroying his organs and blocking oxygen to his brain. My world was ok one day and then just exploded. Almost 21 months later I will say I am still lost. I am in counseling but I just miss him beyond.I have a strange question for all of you angel moms out there, Do you worry about your child still and do you think they are Ok? I ask Sean to please let me know because I know how much I suffer with this. I love him with all my heart and soul and I know in order to live on for my two daughters my heart needs help. Sean was only 24. His sisters were 22 and 15. I see the suffering but can't really help because I am so broken. How do we live on? When if ever does this sense of worry slow down? Please give me your thoughts. They mean the world to me. My life is so different now, I go through life pretending. I am devastated beyond words yet life around me continues. It is so hard and dark... Thank You..