May 30, 2010 I found my best friend and love of my life dead from a heart attack. It seems like a bad dream and I wish I could wake up. I have had many friends and family members try to console me but I still only have terrible agonizing grief. I cry off and on all day. I know this is normal. I'm hoping through this site I can find some peace. I too have much guilt and feel that I took us for granted at times. I thought Bill would always be around. I was so incredibly wrong.
I miss him with all my heart. Fortunately for me 2 days prior to that awful 911 call I made, he looked in my eyes and said "I love you Karen". Little did I know that day that the next time I would see my precious Bill, he would be in a body bag.
I have 4 wonderful daughters and they have been by my side every since he passed. I know that I'm blessed, but want Bill to come back to me. At times I can feel his presence but am still incredibly lost without him. Please help me through this.................