(west monroe, la)
my husband David had a massive heart attack at age 50 in his sleep. I tried to revive him but they told me that there was no use. after the ENT's worked on him all the way to the hospital.
I lost my husband Dec. 29, 2010 and his mother 2 weeks later. Last Monday I was informed that my brother walked in on a home burglary and was murdered. I am trying to cope but I have a 5 year old and its so hard too stay upbeat for him. good intentioned people keep saying the rudest things trying to help. time heals, you will move on with someone else. Sometimes I want to scream at them. my life was planned out and when my husband died so did my hopes and dreams. if I have a good day I feel like its betraying him. I have always been the strong one but now I just feel helpless. I thought I was managing pretty well but losing my brother as bad as that is has made me go into a tailspin missing David. I won't glorify him by saying he was perfect. He was grumpy in the mornings and spoiled but I am grumpy in the evenings so it all evens out. I have never understood people that take their own life but lately I can understand what that pain feels like. (not suicidal tho) No one in my life knows this pain. Its unlike any loss I have ever known I am so tired of hearing that I need to just have faith and time heals all wounds.I dont know if I am gonna make it through this. I smile to everyone and then get home and fall apart. Any advice from anyone facing this road I'm on?