Missing Gary-the love of my life

by Sharon
(Yucca, AZ )

It's been almost 4 months now. People say I'm coping and some have really been here for me. It's funny. Perfect strangers have been more supportive to me than his family or mine. Everyone wants me to be okay. I put on a good show, but in the mornings and evenings the mask comes off. I miss Gary so much, I cry without tears and the sounds I make don't even sound human. Sometimes, I feel like I am going mad and the depth of my pain is so unbearable. I'm exhausted from keeping active, and trying to cope. They say to keep moving and eventually I will start to feel better.... when?