Missing him

by Jamie

My dad was diagnosed with bile duct cancer in June of 2012. We thought we were lucky because we'd caught it at such an early stage and the doctors were able to remove the mass growing on his liver entirely, as most cases of bile duct cancer are inoperable. The cancer grew back and so my dad began chemo. He battled hard for 10 months and things were looking up, the doctors said he was a miracle and basically in remission after only 3 treatments. Then things got worse. My father was in a lot of pain and so he made the decision to stop hooking up his nutrition pack (his only source of any nutrients besides water for about a month.) He passed away April 3rd, 2013. I held my fathers hand while I watched him take his last breath. I've been in denial since the day he got diagnosed and I'm having a hard time coping right now. Just thought I needed to type it out and maybe then it would sink in. But it still isn't, and I don't think it ever will. My heart goes out to anyone suffering from a loss.

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Nov 08, 2013
i feel your pain
by: Anonymous

My dad died of the same cancer. Your story is so similar to what we went through.
I lost my dad in March of 2007, and I never stop thinking about him and how I saw him take that last breath.

He battled long and hard. He was a hero.
I miss him

Jun 09, 2013
missing him
by: Anonymous

I don't know how old you are now but i was 23 when my dad died, too young to lose him. My dad died from excessive smoking basically, 1 heart attack and 2 strokes. I was with him when he had the heart attack but not the strokes. I was in denial too at first but it has been many, many years now and i have accepted it. I sometimes wonder what it would have been like if i could have had him in my life all these years though. I'm really sorry for your loss. It is still very early in the grieving process for you, so i sincerely hope in time you will find some peace.

Jun 08, 2013
Jamie--missing him
by: Anonymous-Michigan

I am very sorry for the loss of your dear Dad my husband died 6 mons ago and my two grown children are suffering as you are now. My husband was the best man I ever knew and I miss him more every day. I feel your pain as it seems that this whole tragic event is maybe a nightmare and we will all wake up from it and find it did not happen. But--because of life and the uncertainty ,we know it is true. I have total faith and trust in God--when we are born we are given a number of days to live on this earth and we will not live a minute more or a minute less than God has planned. The grief you and all of us feel is unbearable at times and I know all too well your broken heart, but a light is at the end of the tunnel and God has a perfect plan for our lives and the goal we are to work for and run the race is to have an eternal home in heaven with Jesus Christ our Savior and then to see our loved ones who have died. Please turn your eyes on Jesus and ask for Him to guide you to a brighter better life and one to strive to serve Him and One day see your Dad again. God Bless You and all of us grieving for our loved ones.

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