by Anne Marie Dion
My 38 year old beautiful daughter died on 9/4/13 from a prescription overdose. She left a 14 year old daughter, a sister and brother-in-law, two nieces and us, her parents. She had gotten married last June to a man we really did not know and were not that comfortable with but she was "in love". When he tried to strangle her this past August she moved back home and spent a wonderful two weeks with us, talking to us, reconnecting with her old friends, and just being our old Katie. Domestic strangulation is a felony in our state and her husband was remanded to the local correctional facility for a month. I need to add that Katie was bipolar and on many psychotropic meds. We were horrified to see her when she first moved back as she had lost so much weight from dealing with her husband; she was down to 80 pounds. Our goal was to feed her and help her through this ordeal. We even had a spa day together when she and I had our hair and nails done and I treasure that day forever. On 9/4/13 we came home to find her dead in our family room where she was living. It was a horror show as I just kept trying to wake her up as my husband called 911. EMS, Fire, police and the ME finally. We still do not have the ME report so we still do not have the final report as to what she died from but I have my suspicions . She did not do this on purpose as she would never have left the love of her life, her daughter and she certainly would not have bought a pack of cigarettes, Gatorade and stated her laundry.
I feel so lost and the holidays are coming. I have meltdowns in the strangest places, a grocery store when I see something she liked and I really do not like idle chatter when I'm standing in line somewhere listening to someone whine about nothing important. I can hear a sing and just cry. I have been to the doctor and am also in grief counseling. They tell me i'm doing great as my meltdowns are fewer and less intense but some days I feel like I am just going crazy and why, why, why? I know there is no answer to that. How do you get through this?