It has been almost 7 months since mom passed away. It was a shock! We knew she was ill but not at deaths door. She was an awesome lady! I have lived several states away for the last 5 years and did not get to see her often but spoke several times a day on the phone. She was my friend and we had a very close bond. I'm so glad she lived next door to my sister because my dad has been gone for 5 years now and it was good to know that she didn't have to be afraid. I feel like my oldest sister is the last bond to my mother that I have. I am the youngest. I hate it that I can't even go to the cemetary! I'm angry at my husband for moving us so far away that I couldn't go often to visit! I feel like he robbed me and I know I shouldn't feel that way and I feel guilty for feeling that way. I wish I could have been closer to help with the caretaking and spend more time with her. My mom always understood though, she was just that way. She always gave the best advice. I am only 39 and feel quite young to have no parents or grandparents. I know there are people out there younger than I who have lost both of their parents.I don't mean to whine. Just wanted to let this out. Has anyone else ever felt this way?