Missing my Baby Brother!!!

by Charlotte
(Melbourne, Australia )

My brother travelled home on Monday morning to say bye to our family as he was planning to come live with my family and I in Australia.
He went and saw our sick grandmother in hospital, met his new nephew, caught up with his other niece and nephews, caught up with all of his friends, and on the night of Tuesday the 5th of March 2013, one of his friends called him and said he was picking him up and taking him out with the boys so they could celebrate my brother's new adventure and this guys birthday.
Fadi was at his friend's house at that time, when he got the call.
His friend arrived they got in the car and 15 minutes later my only brother was gone.
This so called friend was doing 200kms pet hour on the bad roads of Lebanon. My brother was sitting in the front passenger seat while his friend that he was visiting was at the back and the so called friend the driver.
This guy lost control of the car, my brother and his friend kept telling him to slow down but he didn't. The car hit the side barriers of the freeway, went flying in the air and crashed on the other lower freeway on my brothers side. It snapped his neck and skidded 600m on gravel making my brother Non recognizable. We weren't able to have a vigil service for him. We couldn't say our goodbyes. I was talking to him the night before just before I went to bed (time difference) he said he was going to see the doctor to get checked as he had groin pain...
As I woke up the first thing I did was message him to see how he went and if everything was ok.
I never got a reply. Instead 15 min later I got a phone call to tell me that my baby brother is dead. He was 20 years old and sooooo full of life. I hadn't seen him in 3 years. We messaged and skyped all the time but I hadn't seen him as I live in Australia and he lived in Dubai.
Today is 4 weeks to his death and I can't breath. He was meant to be living here with me now. Instead I had to take to first plane and go to his funeral. I am the eldest of 5 and he was the youngest. He was our only brother, son, hero, sunshine....
I can't describe how I feel. I have no interest in life no more all I want is him back. I want him to be here living with my family and I. My kids are never going to know their amazing uncle. I miss him soooo much and it hurts ;(((

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Apr 21, 2013
by: Judy

My brother Jerry died 23 years ago today. The pain never stops . I cry a lot time . I miss him daily and talk to him every day.

Apr 21, 2013
by: Anonymous

The pain never stops. It is 23 years today. My brother lost his life in a car accident . I miss him . I cry all the time .

Apr 02, 2013
Thank you
by: Charlotte

Doreen and Kate I thank both of you for your kind words and support.
Doreen I am sorry for the loss of your husband as well :(
Yes the driver and the back passenger both are alive and did not get not even a scratch ...
Kate thank you for your kind words and I am so sorry about the loss of your son. I can't imagine what you must be going thru as I see my poor mother who just can't function anymore.
I feel for you mothers as I know the love of a mother for I am one. God bless !!

Apr 02, 2013
Missing my Baby Brother!!!!!!
by: Doreen U.K.

Charlotte I am sorry for your loss of your baby brother to this senseless tragedy that cut his life short and left a family in grief and mourning forever.
Grief makes one's body feel as if they have been hit by a truck and can't move on. Yet we are expected to carry on with life. It is hard and you must not feel as if you shouldn't be feeling like this. It is normal. The body goes into shock and sometimes can't recover for a long time. Your brother was so young and because of someone's carelessness a life has been lost forever. I guess the driver lived? This is just the way and so unfair.
If you find yourself struggling with this grief just go and see a counsellor and talk out your feelings so that you can move forward from this pain. I am one of 5. 4 girls and one boy. I know how you feel? To lose a sibling is so hard to live with. It is only time, support of family and friends that can help us move forward from this pain and loss. But you will never forget. HOW CAN YOU?
I wake up every morning and cannot believe I have lost my husband. Some days are bad and others I just cope as best as I can. But I will never enjoy life again in the same way. I guess none of us who has lost a loved one will ever feel the joy in life again in the same way. We will always know that our family is incomplete without that person.

Apr 01, 2013
your brother
by: Kate

I am so very sorry you know this evil pain of death. I lost my son in Nov and your words ring out to me because I understand them. My heart goes out to your sorrow.This pain doesn't go away we learn to live with it somehow. On here we all understand the loss of someone so special as your brother.My kids feel the same of their brother ~ there is no replacement. Just take one day at a time and the struggle will be hard but you will make it. He was so special to your heart I can tell. Sending you deep care.

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