Missing my brother and cousin. :(
My younger brother committed suicide June 29, 2011 at the age of 26. When I got the call I screamed like I've never screamed before. I wanted to run from the pain. It's been a nightmare. How can I move on knowing he's not here anymore. The pain is unbearable. He went to war 4 times so that caused him to develop PTSD. The violent way he died is something that is always in my mind. He was on the phone with my parents for 4 hours saying he wanted to kill himself. They couldn't save him. I've been so angry and my heart aches to the core. I want peace so bad. It's been a long 2 years. My cousin 22 also committed suicide. I miss her so much. They both took their lives the same way and died a year and a month and a half apart. I miss them both so much and it haunts me every day.