Missing My Father Everyday More and More

by LEV
(brooklyn)

On jan 28, 2011 my sister and I found my father in his apartment deceased. This had to be one of the toughest days of my life. Having to tell the family what had happened and seeing my father in that way scared the hell out of me but I had to do it. Still to this day I see my father the last way I saw him.

See as I got older I saw my dad less and less we spoke almost every week. The last day I saw him was christmas day 2010. We had a very good drive home just me and him talking about life and where I was heading. After that we spoke every week, he was helping me re-write my resume so I can get a better job. We were supposed to meet the day he passed and go for lunch. He didn't answer me that day or the next. I just thought he was busy with work and would call me back. But he never did!

I'm very upset that my father and I didn't spend enough time together. And that he will never be able to spend time with me again. At times I'm okay and at others I'm a mess. I miss my dad very very much! And love him to death. I just wish I could of had more time with him.