Missing my Michelle
(san antonio texas bexar)
Sept. 11,2012 my 30 yr old daughter pass away in her sleep, why did this happen, this is not fair Michelle was healthy, happy, she couldn't wait for her birthday that was Sept.24. I don't understand... Monday Sept.10 I went to work around 11am my husband drop me off to my studio because my car was at the shop., I worked all that day and evening I needed to wait for my ride from my husband which he got off around 11pm , in the mean time my daughter called me about 4 times like she always does, I told her I'm on my way home...Michelle called again around 12;30am and said mom I recorded The Voice and she clean up, I said thank you Michelle I love you, Michelle sounded good never complain about anything, I ask her if everything is alright she said yes. I went in the house said to Michelle we're home her TV was on as always. I stayed up until 2am watching the news, then I went straight to bed. The next morning I woke up turn the TV on to watch 9/11 special..I heard the dogs barking I yelled out Michelle are you up, Michelle..I went straight upstairs enter her room the TV on Michelle laying peacefully on her bed side way, Michelle, Michelle, OMG Michelle get up, her fingers curl up and purple, I scream please Michelle please get up.., I put her down on the rug and try to give CPR, nothing ., I knew she was gone,
I called 911.. my Michelle was gone, I scream out why God.. Mommy sorry I didn't hear you, why God didn't you direct me to my daughter.. Michelle I love you I'm so sorry...My Michelle was a little delay not much she was so beautiful, like a star with long beautiful black shing hair, she loved life, Michelle would light up any room with her beautiful smile, she loved sports specially her San Antonio Spurs, and all her pets..We have never been away from each other this long... it hurts so bad..Michelle past away.. Sudden death Syndrome Epilepsy. a silent death, she left this world peacefully with no pain.. if I would've known, I could've done some much more, we take our life for granted, never thought our children would go first...Michelle was going to start working with me.. Michelle knew how to take care of herself I taught her this just in case something happens to me she would be alright, she was my angel, she loved her mommy so much always worried about me, protecting..I haven't left the house, only to see her were she laid to rest..I could hear her voice, I talk to her all the time..I know she's telling me, mommy please don't cry so much, I haven't left you I'm right beside you, I love you always..I'll be waiting for you with open arms...so please honor me mommy by going back and finishing our projects and know that I will guide and protect you for the rest of your life..I love you Michelle my tears will fall everyday until I see you again..Please Jesus hold my Michelle tight and take care of her.. Now I know she is powerful with no disability, she is 20 times smarter then any of us, and she is everywhere with me..I'm trying Michelle, I miss you so much, the pain is unbearable.