missing my Robyn

by sue robinett
(fort worth texas)

She was so tiny when she was born, just 4 lbs. and then she started growing. But not much, at age 30 she was just 5 foot tall. I never imagined I would be alive to see her pass and it was so sudden, I had a hard time believing she is gone. She looked like she was sleeping except for the tubes.

One day she was smiling and hugging me goodbye then the next day it was goodbye for good without smiles or hugs.

They say it was a natural death, i still dont believe that! How can a healthy 30 year old just suddenly die from pancreatitis? I have horrible days, like the day I got the death certificate.

How can this be true? she was just 30! no kids, no husband, planning on attending the cordon bleu school. she wanted to be a chef. I lost her daddy in 1980 when she was 5 months old, i had never felt such pain til I lost her step dad in 2002, now i have lost my baby girl and this pain has no end. How can I outlive my child? how does his happen? i have always been ready to go first.