Missing the "Love of my Life"
It has been 5 months and 22 days since my husband of 42 years passed. My heart is broken in two and I miss him like crazy and feel like half of me is gone. He continues to be with me in my heart and his spirit lives on forever.
He fought such a strong and courageous battle after he received his bone marrow transplant and even before then. He said he did it for me and for that I am eternally grateful.
Life just isn’t the same and never will be. My life isn’t over but it is forever changed. No one can understand the pain you are going through and everyone’s grief path is completely different from the other.
This is such a hard and long battle and I keep thinking of all the things that we will miss together in the future. All the grief books I am reading tell me that God has a path for me and He will help me find it. That is hard since right now I don’t even care about the future and want to be with the love of my life but God did have a different plan and I am going to have to someday accept that.
I do have so much to be thankful for. Having my husband’s love for over 42 years, blessed with 2 amazing children and their spouses and our grandchildren. God blessed me in many ways and I do thank Him every day for that. I still have my husband’s love and feel it every moment. The Holy Spirit continues to give me the strength to get up every day and do the things I need to do even though I may not want to for sure.
And besides the support of my family lots of friends continue to be with me and are there for me. That is another blessing for sure.
Even though I have been blessed I still miss my husband and today is especially hard remembering all of our happy times and celebrating New Years Eve with family and friends. I so miss his hugs, kisses, laughter and zest for life. He fought till the very end.
Sending lots of hugs and kisses to my dear husband in heaven. Till we meet again my LOVE…………………