Missing you forever daddy

by Viviana
(Arizona )

For about 4 years my dad has been fighting cancer. He was in prison he pretty much got life in prison for somthing he didn't do he was a the wrong place at the wrong time. Anyways when they told him he had stomach cancer stage 4. He did not want to see no one. He didn't let no one see him. They gave him no longer than 2 weeks. But he kept fighting. After the doctors said he only had two weeks he lived 4 years. But he got very sick in October 2013. He only had a couple weeks. For 2 weeks I stayed with him in the hospital. He was on life support. It was very hard to see him like that he told me he was in to much pain so everyone decited to take him off of the life support. We took it off October 31st at midnight. Because Halloween was his favorite. After taking him off he stayed breathing by himself for 36 hours. He's favorite number was 36. So November 1st at 12:05 he passed away. It was very hard for me because I was so close to him he was my life. I was in the room as he slowly passed away. As his heart rate was from 30 to 10 to 8 to 5 to 0. And just like that my dad was gone forever. I couldn't believe it. I sat there for a while laying with him just crying. Losing him was the worst. Not to mention I'm only 15. First year of high school.. My biggest fear was to lose him and now that I lost him I'm fearless.

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Apr 30, 2014
Missing you forever daddy.
by: Doreen UK

Viviana I am so sorry for your loss of your Dad to cancer. This is such a horrible disease that destroys lives and families.
I lost my husband of 44yrs. almost 2yrs. ago of MESOTHELIOMA a rare and serious lung cancer caused by working with asbestos and was inoperable, incurable, and aggressive. It is one of the worst experiences to watch your loved one slowly die in front of you, and there is nothing you can do. You feel so helpless. My husband was in severe pain and I called for a doctor to give him an injection for the pain, and they had to wait 3hrs. till the morning clinic had ended. There is no more PRIORITISING. To leave someone with cancer pain is CRUEL, AND DISGRACEFUL. He is not in pain anymore. But what he went through still fills me with tears and sorrow. We are living more and more in a careless society. Even taking ONE DAY AT A TIME, is difficult, but the only way to move forward.

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