Missing you Larry 1956-2012
We were together almost 3 years. We went out on a Sunday and I found him dead on a Monday. I feel responsible, like I could have saved him. I listened to him. I did not call doctors, I should have. His death certificate says he died of alcoholism. I wish we could have been together so much longer because I loved him so much. He never gave me himself. I think he loved me but he always told me that he had been alone for 26 years...whatever that meant...I think he was still attached to the last girlfriend and did not want to let her go. I think he loved me but he couldn't let those memories go. I was a handful. He even said that. You are a handful. And I am. I can be a pain, ornery, obstinate. But I loved him with every fiber in my body. He drove a truck. He was heavyset. Brown eyes, brown hair. Not the best looking guy for sure, but to me, absolutely gorgeous. I miss him so much. I just dont know how to go on without him.