Missing you so much
Today has been a really hard day. So far Halloween and now Thanksgiving have been a real bust. I just can't quit crying today, it has been a real rollercoaster. I think that I'm ok but then it hits out of nowhere. I can't seem to control my outbursts of bawling not just crying but bawling. I don't know how I can possibly handle Christmas. I'm glad that I have my daughters and grandkids, but I don't know if that is going to be enough. I sure hope it is, but the closer it gets the worse I seem to be getting.
I love and miss Bryan so much it hurts so badly. Someone please pinch me and wake me up from this nightmare, please. I know I must try to regain composure but it's so hard, I miss you so much.