Missing you so much

by Donna

Today has been a really hard day. So far Halloween and now Thanksgiving have been a real bust. I just can't quit crying today, it has been a real rollercoaster. I think that I'm ok but then it hits out of nowhere. I can't seem to control my outbursts of bawling not just crying but bawling. I don't know how I can possibly handle Christmas. I'm glad that I have my daughters and grandkids, but I don't know if that is going to be enough. I sure hope it is, but the closer it gets the worse I seem to be getting.

I love and miss Bryan so much it hurts so badly. Someone please pinch me and wake me up from this nightmare, please. I know I must try to regain composure but it's so hard, I miss you so much.

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Nov 29, 2010
Control over heartache?

Go easy on yourself. And its normal to have out and out uncontrollable bawling/sobbing. Or I sure hope so because I did for the first 9 months. Every one is different in grief as they are in life so there is no telling what is "Normal".

As far as control If you find a way to control grief... please give up the secret we would all love to know how to control heart ache. It's like an emotion dragging you down the street when your not ready. We all say "I just can't do this!" yet we do, what choice do we have? I would give up my two dimes in my pocket if I could pay someone to do this for me.

Just take it one second, minute, hour and finally day at a time; it is all that we can do until we find the secret of survival in this new life we must lead. We will always lend an ear, if you speak we will hear...

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