missing you x

by angela bainborrow
(swansea wales uk)

i lost my mum in june she had been ill for a few months and had been failing and then suddenly one day everything changed , she had a stroke and after 9 days in hospital she died . leaving me feeling very lost and alone . i have blamed myself for not paying more attention to her and taking notice of what was happening , i realise now even though it is hard for me it would have been horrendous if mum had lived as she was , after the stroke , i have taken it as a positive mum had 73 happy years she had two children a happy marriage , 5 wonderful grandchildren and 3 great granchildren , who she enjoyed and loved and although i miss her more than i can say . i appreciate the time we had with her . the illness she had she had had all her life and had lived a good life until the last 18 mths . we were blessed to have such a wonderful mother and are so blessed for what she did for us and what she has left in her wake , i hope these words will help someone else as it has taken me time and thought to get where i am now but i will always miss mum but she would not want me not to live my life until we met again in the room beyond xx