Missy, The World's Greatest Puppy!

by Eric
(Cedar Creek, TX)

I lost my precious Missy on Feb. 6, 2011. She was technically my roommates dog but we have lived together since I gave her to him over 10 years ago. I loved Missy as if she were my own, I fed her, held her, shared every moment at home with her. I am devastated! Missy was the sweetest little girl. She had the sweetest disposition and was so so loving. I miss her so terribly and I feel as though I am going through this all alone. My roommate has already moved on and doesn't understand why I am still mourning. Its only been 5 days, and I still hurt so bad. I feel as though such an important part of my life has been ripped out of me. We buried her in the back and I visit her grave every day. I keep it clean and neat because I feel like I can still take care of her that way. None of my family calls or checks on me, Im just so alone and I feel as though I'm the weird one for grieving this long. I cry every day and I feel no one understands how bad I am hurting. I've done all I can do to make sure she is remembered. She is on my FB page, Ive created a memorial on line, but still I hurt and now my roommate thinks Im just taking it all too far by posting it on FB and stuff. He chooses to keep it all in and that his mourning is a private issue between he and Missy. Which is fine. However I was hoping he would be there to understand and he just seems indifferent. Am I crazy? I don't feel that mourning for a couple weeks is unusual but now I'm tagged as being excessive for mourning for 4 days (well 5 now). Is it wrong to mourn for more than a couple of days? I just miss her so much and her absence is so apparent in my heart. I miss you Missy and love you so much.