When you learned your time on this earth was short you told me you were ready. But I wasn't ready Mom. I told you I would be ok but I'm not. I feel like I lied to you. I'm trying so hard but I can't stop crying. I feel like a little girl all over again. I am so lonely for you to talk with.
My Mom passed away less then a week ago (2-5-2012) at the age of 58.. She had not been feeling well after visiting our Grandfather in FL for months and finally went in to see what could be the problem.. On the last day of school last year, I came in quickly, sat down and looked at her calmly and asked what they had cam up with.. Cancer.. My Mom was told she only had 2 weeks that day, and it has been over a year.. But that day, she told me not to cry, and be strong.. But I feel the same, as though I have lied to her because even at this moment, I'm trying to hold back the tears I swore I'd never let fall..
