Mom and Laurie
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My mother died February 16, 2010 from complications of Alzheimers. She had a horrible, painful death; it was a reaction to her medication.
3 months later, my sister, Laurie, was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and left us all behind 3 months after being diagnosed. From the day she said she had pain until the day she passed, she never had a good day.
Watching the 2 women I loved most in my life die within 6 months (and a friend at the same time)has wreaked havoc on my life. I'm still stunned. I've dealt with Mom's loss for over a year now and feel like I'm passed the shocked phase, but I'm just beginning to even realize Laurie is gone. This has been a very long journey for me. And others have died in the past year too, so I feel like I can't get my head above water.
But I go on each day. I've only felt like joining them once. I must admit, it does cross my mind, but I couldn't leave my family behind through suicide. It just wouldn't be fair to them. And they have been such a support to me. With their continued love and support, we will all survive together. And Michael Buble's song, "Lost", helps.