mom of two grown
I was a single mother trying to raise 2 kids and had a large home to care for. I needed help. I petitioned God to please send me a husband- trusted and believed that He would do so. I found a man whom said he believed the things I did and was also looking for a good wife. I believed him, married him and gave him my whole heart.
He turned out to be a liAr. He was very much into child pornograpy- denied it till the end. He would take out his anger on me and manhandle me if the urge hit him. I would try and try to keep hope and believe him- he promised me to be a good husband. We would go to bible study once a week and church- but on the side i found he was always into the pornography. He killed our marriage last march finally by picking a fight w/me and throwing me around again. I was so sad and confused.
I later found out what i had feared the most; he was watching child pornography again. There was no doubt about it this time. He never said sorry or confessed to anything. I packed his bags (i could not allow this) and he just left. He murdered our marriage. That's what it feels like. I was very cheated and lied to. Now i am still going through major depression at the unjust of it. He is continuing on as if it never happened- no consequence. He divorced me quietly (i made him, it blood on his hands) and now has a new girlfriend that looks like he never missed a beat. It sickens me.